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Below are remarks delivered to the Central Oregon Chapter of Amnesty International on March 29, 2008. Four members of the Central Oregon Peace Network were asked to tell the stories of their time in military service in the 1960’s and now as peace activists in their 60‘s. Below is one story:
Thank you for giving us the opportunity to be here today. Thanks for all you do through Amnesty International and the other peace and justice organizations you represent and support. Your efforts are important and make a difference and are appreciated.
I want to begin by reading the last few lines of Tom Waits, Road To Peace, his lamentation on the Palestinian-Israeli conflict.
“If God is great and God is good,
Why can’t he change the hearts of men?
Maybe God himself is lost and needs help,
Maybe God himself needs all of our help,
And is lost upon the road to peace.”
I’m John Schwechten. I make my living as a counselor in private practice. My wife, CJ, and I have lived for 18 yrs in Bend. I’m also a long-time peace activist, an army veteran, and the father of two sons, one of whom is now serving in Iraq.
My colleagues and I have been asked to talk about our time in the military and about our activism. Personally, my time in the army was brief and entirely undistinguished. I was drafted in 1967. I fought this conscription by appealing it four times. I lost all four appeals. I had joined the Peace Corps while still in college at the University of Montana, but I put off going in until I graduated. I received my first draft notice while in my last six months in college. I appealed to my hometown draft board in Bethlehem, PA. I also called Sen. Mike Mansfield, (D-MT) who was Senate Majority Leader, and a strong critic of the Vietnam War. He called me back, listened to my plea for help, then told me he would not help. Meanwhile another draft notice arrived. I appealed it to the State Draft Board in Penna. I lost. I appealed to the Missoula, Montana draft board. I lost again. One day, Vice President Hubert Humphrey came to campus to advocate for the Peace Corps. After his speech I approached him about my case. He listened, put me in touch with his military attaché in Washington, D.C., and said he would try to help. Another draft notice showed up. After about two weeks of frantic calls to Humphrey‘s office, the V.P.’s military attaché called to say they couldn’t help. Just before leaving for boot camp, a letter arrived from the Peace Corps. It contained a plane ticket to Texas, where I was to start language training for my assignment to Kabul, Afghanistan. Out of appeals, and with the choice of going to Canada, Sweden, or underground, I gave up and left for Ft. Lewis, WA. and boot camp.
And then I caught an odd sort of break. Remember this was 1967, and Vietnam was really ramping up. The first week after induction is spent in testing, filling out papers, and basically getting used to standing in line and getting yelled at. Well, you don’t really get used to getting yelled at. I didn’t care for standing in line, either. But when they learned that I had taken two years of ROTC (Reserve Officer Training Course) in college, which in those days was required of all male students who attended land-grant colleges as I did, I was pulled aside and asked if I wanted to go to OCS (officer candidate school). I thought about it and decided to give it a try. So for the next several days I went from place to place taking more tests, talking to more people. Finally at the last station, a clerk took me aside and said, basically, that if I go to OCS I’ll end up in one of the combat arms: infantry, artillery or armor, and get a one-way ticket to Vietnam. He said 2nd lieutenants in Nam are fairly expendable, and I really ought to give some serious thought to this choice I was making. I did. And I changed my mind and told this major I wasn’t interested in becoming an officer.
That very night I was on an airliner headed to basic training at Ft. Bliss, TX. Punishment for not doing army the army’s way. After basic training, I was sent into combat medic training. Now, combat medics don’t exactly have it easy in wars. They’re primary targets. But following this training, I was sent to another school where I trained as an operating room tech. OR techs work in MASH (Mobile Army Surgical Hospital) units. It’s a little safer. That’s were the docs were. I trained at two hospitals: Brooks Army General, in San Antonio, TX, and Phoenixville Army Hospital in Penna. There were some 1500 amputees from the war at these hospitals, and I got to see close up what happens to soldiers who suffer the wounds of war. And I remember very clearly some of these cases. Faces being rebuild with pelvic bones. Grafts of skin from one place to another. Amazing stuff that most folks don’t get to see. Wartime, for all its horrors, are times when medical science, particularly when it involves reconstructive surgeries, makes significant technical advances. And these young docs were getting a lot of training, fast. But reconstructive surgery mitigates damages, it does not bring the body back as it was. I remember one young man who had his mutilated foot amputated and woke to see the missing limb. I still hear his screams.
Following completion of this training–by the way, of the 32 people in my class, 30 got orders to Vietnam, one guy went to South Korea– I, beyond every expectation, went to Germany. And I never saw another hospital during my two year army service. Once in Germany, I filled a paper slot with the 8th Medical Battalion as its OR tech. But it was Germany, not Nam. So in fact, I became, without any training, the battalion legal clerk.
Fast forward some 22 years. Vietnam is history, right? Dead and gone. Well, for some it’s not history. As Faulkner has said, “It’s not even past.” 58,000 American war dead, other tens of thousands, wounded. Not to mention the vastly greater Vietnamese toll of dead and wounded, the wasteland that became their country. Those who survived, American and Vietnamese alike, were alive, but the wounded were often left to suffer not just physical, but unseen mental terrors. All of this spun out from this small, backward region in Asia. The place where Communism threatened us with a “domino effect,” as our presidents kept telling us.
Now I was not in Vietnam, as I have said. But, over my counseling career, I’ve worked with numbers of Vietnam veterans who have suffered for decades with various disabling mental problems. Post-traumatic stress, drug and alcohol abuse, depression, anxiety disorders, legal problems. It’s the legal problems that brought many of these veterans to my door. Because, you see, I treat people who have been convicted of sexual crimes. People who molest innocent little children, who rape women and sometimes men. And over the years I have listened to the stories these offender/veterans tell about what happened to them in Vietnam in that long ago war. How the things they witnessed, and the things they did to other human beings, have haunted them–things they could not handle sober, and the rage they tried to obliterate through injected and snorted drugs. Things that had to be excised from their minds by any means, and things that continued to torment them many years after that far-away war had ended, but was not past. The broken veterans I have seen in my practice have spent their lives living a private hell that began when they were young and innocent boys full of spirit and spunk, and yes, even looking to get into the fight. But the real reality of that fight, not the idealized, patriotic quest they imagined going in, became for many a suffering that still refuses to end. Now not every one who witnesses war’s horrors breaks. Some, I suspect most, have the fortitude, the inner strength, even the faith, to go on. But many young boys are not so fortunate, or the memories are just too savage, and they succumb.
1991. Pres. George H.W. Bush asks Congress to authorize a war against the Iraqi dictator who has invaded and occupied Kuwait. This region was of strategic interest to the United States due to its vast oil reserves. But the given reason was that an ally was invaded. It wasn’t about oil, they insisted. In Bend, OR, and cities around the country, small groups of peace activists began a weekly vigil in protest of this coming war. This battle, called Desert Storm, lasted a mere 100 hours. The Iraqi army was defeated on the battlefield in a rout. But like other wars past, this one did not end there and then. It refused to be dead and gone. It smoldered. And it smoldered.
Until one day in 2003, and another Bush president, having found himself the leader of the free world, and, post-9/11, found reason enough to finish what his father had not. So he, too, asked Congress for authority to invade Iraq and find all those weapons of mass destruction that years of searching by the UN had failed to uncover.
And, like with the Congress before, he got his authority. And, as before, a small group of Bend citizens, as well as many other citizens around the country, began again to protest this building momentum for war, and then the war itself.
When after some time no WMD’s were found, the justification for the war morphed into nation-building. The very nation-building candidate George W. Bush said he wouldn’t engage in once president. We were there to spread democracy in a vital area of the world. But, as with the first Bush war, this one is really all about oil. And as the war rages on, American soldiers and Marines continue dying. Iraqis are dying in untold numbers. Tens of thousands on both sides are being maimed and brutalized. Reportedly two million Iraqis fled to neighboring countries. Since the Bush Administration failed to prepare ahead for the aftermath of the invasion, the Iraqi institutions began to fail rather quickly, security broke down, violence escalated. A civil war ensued, and continues today.
Upon this new road to peace, another justification emerged to explain why we were there. We were in Iraq to fight the terrorists. Some suggested Saddam had been in bed with Osama Bin Laden. Never mind that no credible evidence ever emerged to support this. And, not once has Bush admitted that Al-Qaida joined this fight only AFTER we invaded and BECAUSE we were there.
Now, 5 years on, after the vaulted “surge” of American troops to Baghdad, the paying off of Sunni insurgents to fight with us, and the 6-month ceasefire called by Muqtada al-Sadr appears ended, we are witnessing increasing levels of new fighting. And Bush just this week said we were winning. And last week, on it’s 5th anniversary, he told us this war was “just, necessary, and noble.”
I want to close my remarks now with part of an email my son sent just yesterday. My son is a battalion surgeon with an infantry unit. He is in a forwarding operating base they call a FOB. Since last week they have been getting hit with rocket and mortar fire. He wrote: “We are still on lockdown and have been getting hammered pretty good lately. Sucks to be us. It’s sort of like sitting waiting for something to happen and regretting when it does. The biggest thing is how young a lot of these guys are that are hurt. I’m not an old coot, but these are just teenagers here.” My son is 31 years old. He’s married and has a one year old daughter. Her name is Ariel. He’s been in Iraq since December. He is not scheduled to leave until late February 2009.
The thing I don’t get is this. Why aren’t more people out there on the street raising their voices and carrying signs against this horror? How many more must die to wake people up? We need all the voices we can get. I hope you will consider joining us. I hope you will write letters to the local newspaper. I hope you will speak out for these young kids who are in harm’s way. We don’t need more broken bodies and minds. We need our sons and daughters, fathers and mothers, brothers and sisters, and yes, even grandmothers and grandfathers, safely home.
Thank you.